thelamegirl

2012-02-10T20:56:00.003+08:00

FIRSTLY,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BFF!!!!!!
Shall wish him at 11.59pm later on =p

Ytd was my off day!
Spent it greatly!!!!!!!!!!!!!
First,i cabbed to j10 tgt with peiqi and kim bao~ :D
Went to look for ah fa!!!!!!!! Delivered my oreo cheesecake ,hehe .
Miss him alot. Ok he praised that im becoming prettier. HAHAHA
Saw melvin and yiting too! Omg,miss working with them alot!!! :(
Ate there..miss my god bro's cooking! hahahahaha wee
After which,went to teo heng for k :D
Night...meet mr L.
He treated me dinner and movie.....ok it feels like a date........well.... we're from diff world.
But i really had a great time with him.... as a friend :)

Today meihua came down to look for us!!!!! ok miss her alotttttttt <33333
Slacked with her and many others after work.
Got closer with my eyecandy!!!!!! yay very happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But somehow i know we will not progress further......but he's a real nice guy to mix with :)
& SO GLAD THAT HE GAVE THUMBS UP FOR MY CAKE. HAHAHA. Melted my heart!
I wish i could tell you how i feel for you,but im afriad........you will ignore me :(
I don't know what to do. But am looking forawrd to do closing shift with him next fri! :D

belated presents and card from pq~ SO SWEET OF HER!!! <3

2012-02-08T23:08:00.003+08:00

I am wondering......who still visit my blog?
Hahah but its ok. I blog to jot down my happy or sad times. To remember my life~
SO I AM VERY HAPPY TODAY THAT IM JUMPING FOR JOY!!!!!!!
Went for hygienic course at HQ with hongyu. Ok real damn far.
My bus fare is sho expensive :( forgot to tap out!! worst,max charge.
Anw,saw vickson and jack there too. Hehehe so it wasn't so lonely? :)
The teacher is quite funny too..course ended about 5pm..its like confirm pass even if u fail. heh!

So i got kor to check my JAE APPEAL RESULTS AT 2PM since i can't online~
FUCK YEAH,IT WAS A SUCCESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No need do RJ #fuckyeah
Kor is happy for me,daddy too and of course myself :)
I will work harder in the next 3 years ^.^
No matter how tough it is,i chose this road myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will make full use of this chance and do well!
It may not be something i like now,but eventually!

So anw after the course,bused to amk then cab to ssc to meet pq,kim and lx!!!!
Ok cab fare super ex :((((((((
Then we had subway,walked ard.....I BOUGHT EIFFLE TOWER NOTEBOOK & PHOTOALBUMS HEHEHE. Crazy girl. Laughs.
Then homed to bake oreo cheescakke! Second attempt hehehehe.
Bringing to j10 tmr for ah fa,leroy and melvin! Miss these guys alott uh.
And then k + lunch with pq and kim. HEHEHE HAPPY GIRL IS ME RIGHT NOW.

Anyway,i miss that boy.
Today i reached late,couldn't see him :(
SAT IT SHALL BE!!!!!!
but somehow i sense no chance :(

2012-02-06T19:57:00.004+08:00

Heart beats fell,colours and promises..
How to be brave,how can i love when im afraid to fall.
Darling don't be afriad,i have loved you for a thousand years..i love you for a thousand more.
SO ADDICITVE CAN. HAHAHA

Anyway,i guess im having some feelings for a guy..hahaha~
It was last night that brought us tgt! Its like love at first sight? :)
So i didn't regretted working night shift though it was damn shag!
Oh yah,went chinatown with kwee and xiu mei for the yong tau foo!! STILL NICE!
Ok back to topic. I don't know how to explain but i get so happy when i can see him! :D
Ytd sam's dad fetched us home. Then i was very scared to get up into the lorry.
AND THEN.......He stretched out his hand to hold me up. Ok gentlemen max :)
Today he actually waited for me to knock off!! So good right..he waited an hr plus..oops guilty.
I hope we can further improve and get closer hahaha. He's also jan baby~~~ weeeeee.
Ok think im crazy. HAHAHA WHATEVER.

Tmr going HQ at defu lane for hygience course :X
Sigh. Only me and hongyu...scared awkward and bored. Idw solo with him LOL.
Looking forward to wednesday cos i will be gg j10 to visit ah fa and leroy tgt with my oreo cheesecake!!!!! <3
Also........appeal results...ok srly very excited nervous and scared! :(

Random pics of me :D

2012-02-04T23:06:00.004+08:00

Today had been great at conrad's house!!!
His family members all so nice..haha...his mum and dad is great too...Uncle so funny uh.......
Gambling most of the times instead tgt w his sister's bf.
Ok very envy cos he is very good looking and nice uh..haha.

Anw,changed my blogskin too!! Yayness,my favourite!
I love to explore coding for blog...idk abt web page designing..
But at least i am comfortable with IT? So i wont die right?? :X

2012-02-04T10:21:00.002+08:00

Work had been such a headache.
I feel so useless,so stress,so depress,just very upset.
I don't know how to explain this feeling but seeing kelvin like this,i felt real unfair.
I heard about what actually happened and i start to think..........................
Is money always that important that u can do all sorts of tricks just to get promoted and drive someone away?
Such a cheap thing.....To think of how good he treat me on the first day of my work.
Now i guess i need to be more wary.
Sigh,kelvin came back ytd..i was so happy that i flew to work!!!! haha..
He is still working today and tmr...nobody knows when is he going............
So i requested to take photo with him tmr!!!!!!!!!!!! :) then he thought i wanna resign as well..LOL
And he still give me off today!!
I guess i made him disappointed cos ytd boss came and he complained..................
Almost got warning letter. I mean JUST GIVE LOR..i also not scared..but why u involve innocent ppl >:( hate u!!!!!
Being sent for hygience course next week w hongyu.......should be a good thing i guess.
Anw,ytd had steamboat w kor's friends at home..haha yummyyyyy.

Heading for movie with my darlings without aili though :(
Then to bff's hse for food and GAMBLING! Hahahah boooooo.

Heavy heart......sinking down to the brim of the sea.
Cried hard.......wonder much,recalled much.
So,whats the purpose?
The call by them... i hope you appreciate..thanks bff,bs and jm for coming to my hse to acc me when the clock strike the golden hr.....
Haha feel so loved by the surprise visit from them.
Chatted alot with them..really miss this kind of feeling when you meet up ur old friends.
No matter how unhappy i had been in nbss,there is still these ppl being thr for me!
Lastly,Happy Birthday to you. I wish for the best for you in everything!

2012-02-02T21:13:00.002+08:00

So i had good and bad news in kfp..
Good de shall be kept confidential since im told not to tell anyone.
Bad is.....................something that almost me cry at work today........
Had kitchen meeting tgt w andy..he told us kelvin resigned!!!!!
I swear i was having a big shock..i couldn't take it......
I feel like breaking down but who understand?
He has done so much for me and every chefs..He's just a too OVER nice kitchen head..
And he got scolded by andy so badly that he decided to leave.............
He left without informing me :( he still promised to bring me go eat marche......
I know he's feeling real bad now..after slogging so hard for paradise group yet this is what he got.
I just feel unfair for him..
But i know leaving is finally the right choice because he don't belong here at all..he deserved somewhere better...
All the best to him and i really hope i will be able to see him again..
He had done alot for me........someone who i will never forget.............

Now many chefs wanna quit..i will be left alone there..facing the fk up management................ :(
But im deciding to quit too since i find no reasons to stay anymore as well..
If not for $,i would be enjoying life at home!!!!!!!!!!!! :(
Maybe work till end of march ba..sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .
Why is life like this........
When i just knew someone and we became close..soon,bid farewell. Good times never last and i dread to say goodbye.
Ah fa left was alr a heart attack for me..now is all.......................
The 2 months with every single chefs had been a memorable. I will never forget how good they are to me.
Treating and doting me like a sister...i really appreciate.
I guess i just need to accept that life is like that. His and goodbyes. =(
Meihua,melvin and zell also gone.........its like they are all nice ppl i met. ARGHHHHHHH :( but we don't belong together.

I got to face the battle myself. I cannot accept life.
I know tertiary is going to get worse........i just dun feel like growing up because adults always have conflicts.
Its a damn complicated world to be in............I don't want. =(
save me dearest.

2012-01-30T19:56:00.001+08:00

Ytd had fun working w liang,jack and jiajun at the UOB roadshow. Easy earn money.
But i got chided by a stupid indian lady for serving her later. Wtf -___-
Its like who come first i serve who? She said i am not interested in her. Ok,OBVIOUSLY.
Thats the most pissed off thing! Other than that,it was ok... crowd came suddenly and empty suddenly. hahaha.

Then met my beloved girls to bainian tgt! Had alot fun with them :D
First to aili hse,then siting , then mine and lastly, lixuan! hehee..

Today i got my jae results. Its the same pain im facing on 9 jan...... cried alone at home -.-
Cannot accept what my future is going to be cos i don't see any also?
Appealed through moe web as well as DAE. Headed down to nyp.
I wish to get in to nyp.....pls. I do not want to do RJ :X
Well,i have both great friends in either poly..so even if appeal fail,i should just work hard in rp.
Just that the course may not be my interest at all!!!!! Totally following kor's footstep.
I hope he will lead me through in the coming 3 years because im really going to struggle.
IT STUFFS..........I can never imagine myself to be learning these cos thats what i hated most -,-
Whatever it is,hope i can find a good husband who is willing to support me. HAHAHHAA.
(Though i see future in you but idk abt my feelings for you)

Kor had been worrying abt me...scared his naive noob sister will suffer when apr starts.
Hahah so cute lo him...but i have to learn to grow up too......................... =(
Cannot always depend on him...(but i still can't live without him pls)
Sorted my thoughts..since im given this ,i should just cherish and make myself like the course.
Work hard in order to get out of IT cycle and pursue business after 3 years! Thats my goal :)

Anws,feeling real tird that i feel like quitting and just enjoy my remaining holidays!
EXCITED FOR BANGKOK TRIP WITH CHEN,KWEE AND HUATKIT!!!! :D
January had been a cursed month,finally tmr last day!!!!!!!!!!!! hatee it.
But sadly,feb is the month to pay adult fare :( No more $5 top up when im broke..sigh.

More photos on my birthday ~ :)all the way like this from yishun to sentosa :O

make up by lx under the umbrella LOL

cny with seniors!!!polaroid with my dears!!!polaroid w family!!!!!!!! <3

sweet bro i got!! love him!

2012-01-28T23:23:00.003+08:00

So...ytd was MY DEAR BFF BIGG DAY ^.^
Hope he enjoyed himself with us at his hse and kim's hse.
He also made dinner for us!!! haha damn cool..got appetiser,main course,dessert and oreo shake~ahahaha.
Stayed up till 2plus am....

Today woke up and met kt to buy breakfast!
Then head to chen's house for lion dance and gamble!!!!!!
Lost quite alot :( sobbz.
Anyway,it was so awkward to see him........................even ran to the room to burst out my tears before i turned fine to face him the entire day.
I guess i hasn't overcome my own fear and .............smth else.
Thinking back,real hurts..was really trying to control..
How i wish we can communicate like normal friends or just senior and junior..but its so weird that i doubt so it will happen X.X
I can feel everyone knowing we're awkward like srly.......................but he really acted so well...could just talk normally with everybody.....................i was still trying to avoid at the start..
Well,we also played at pei rong's hse! I was the only junior thr since kim didn't go w me :<
Everything turned out fine cos i got kwee and chen! muahaha and other seniors was fine w me too hehehe.
Had great fun though......................hope this gathering will continue next year :)

Working at UOB roadshow tmr..........gawd. Lucky liang is the supervisor X.X
I lost my voice......like srly so unglam cos my voice is so man...but throat is so dry and coughing till i wanna die.
Sick for 3 weeks. What happened to my immune system!??!!

ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
JAE RESULTS IS GONNA BE OUT ON MONDAY 8AM........ ):
I know i will faint when i wake up..........................sigh sigh sigh. Wish the best luck to me cos idw go rp anymore. RJ is like so difficult. I mean well,STUDYING JUST SUCKS RIGHT? ><

P/S : The feeling of missing someone is so damn strong. I want to see him soon!!!!!! (i mean my god bro chef)

mom's side relatives~!!!

2012-01-25T12:37:00.006+08:00

FIRST,HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!! :)
May everyone be blessed with good health,staying happy and prosperous all year through!
So..its the third day of cny. This year was rather special cos im no longer meeting the usuals to bai nian at instructor daniel's hse cos he went overseas and may never come back :(
Anyways,had a great reunion dinner at ahma's house..
Followed by collecting angbaos on mon and ytd!
Hahaha. Hit 200 bucks woooooo.
Ytd night also went to kwee's hse for mj..haix,foever losing girl is me. hahah but its ok!
It was kind of awkward to play with his 2 friends but eventually it was ok! haha!
Visit later and movie !!!!! weeeeeeeeee :D

I srly forgot abt today..its your birthday. Im sorry,or maybe i no longer care for u like before after so much things has happened.

bros and me!! wee :D

YAY FAMILY LOVESSS!HUAT AHH!!cousin!! :)
CUTEST GIRL!! Aiyo,love her so much cos she's so adorable!

2012-01-17T21:16:00.002+08:00

Finally i withdrew my pay from the bank.
But guess what..i lost 140 bucks at np.
Blame me for being dumb to bring so much money out when im just shopping at np. LIKE COME ONE,WHAT CAN I DO WITH SO MUCH MONEY RIGHT?
I know im dumb but whoever the stealer,i hope karma strikes you.
Best if you're knocked down by a lorry and then it reveresed.
I sounded mean but i really curse him/her. ITS NOT YOUR MONEY AFTERALL RIGHT!?
My hard earned 4 days pay is gone.......my targetted clothes to buy...is also gone :(
Im like left with 100 to shop for heels and bottoms..there goes my tops :(
REALLY DEPRESS AND UPSET....Life's unfair..
Just what did i do in my previous life to recieve this kind of treatment?
I don't want to show mercy anymore :@

Kor was with me..he know im real upset and he decided to give me $30 when he's alr real broke too :(
I didn't want..actually withdrew more for him to shop tmr in case he not enough but now i can't even save myself... X_____X
Last year i lost my hse keys..this year $..next year how??? kor said lappy..wah..dun play with me..that is gonna cost me almost 2k..my lifetime saving is goneeeeee soon soon.......
Still planning to go overseas on march or april w friends.......u tell me how to go now?!
My bank don't even have the amt to afford my lappy yet......this sucks..
Now kor is worried for me to go poly..he say i m like so careless and naive..ltr easily get backstabbed ...sigh....................................
When i treat ppl with my genuine heart,this is what i get back...

Met up with darl today!!!!!!! Omg missesssssss her x100000000000000!
She's flying back today :( sadda.......... the next time she come back,we will be gg seperate ways..................i don't know if i can cope without my partner motivating me..

2012-01-14T23:55:00.003+08:00

Firstly,i must say i had a memorable seventeen this year!!!!!! :)
Secondly,im thankful to all the wishes,be it through smses,calls,,fb,twitter or real life. Really appreciate!
Thirdly,thanks to all my dear friends for getting me so exp gift this year :( I know their pocket burnt a hole.

So basically i woke up to make breakfast for kim & hk...
Then kim and I submitted our JAE finally......................... >.<
The weird and shock thing was...IT modules are being chosen as my second & third choice. I know it srly screw my life.. but no choice.
Anw,then head down to kp to deliver the oreo cheesecake i made for the staffs :D
They sang bday song for me..haha so shy.......
Then went to sing k~~~ok for the first time i dare to singgggggg infront of ppl ok!!!!
After which,met up with chen for dinner at marina square. Had creamy udon!!!!!
Thanks for the treat by kim and chen!!!!!!!! LOVES <3
Also met up with lixuan and anna and then took some photos tgt :) photos w lx~hope to upload soonnnnnn!
Cabbed home.. had a great day!!! Thanks for the accompany!
Really love the presents by everyone :D SERIOUSLY & SINCERELY THANK YOU!

Well,this year was rather special because people would call to wish me :D Very touched.
My chefs did too..hahah awesome!!!!!!!!
Oh yeah,leroy was so nice to get me a tank top when he went hols!!
Anw,my dear ah fa kor kor is being transferred to J10 >:(
Very upset...wish i can transfer to be with him but j10 srly too far if not i really will go..

Planning thailand trip!!!!! I WANT GO BANGKOK! Hahahaha. Ok hope i can fly thrrrrr before poly starts which im totally not looking forward ~.~

Breakfast i made for kim and huatkit too! :)

Their presents tgt with momochen! :D <333333

From jocelyn and mei hua!! OMGG lovess it loads~

From chef kelvin!!!!!!!! ^^

FROM MY DARL GIRLS =)

Big bowl at wakura!

I got the msg...but what if i still have feelings.............it doesn't seem to be fading.

2012-01-11T20:38:00.003+08:00

Without my friends and my kor,i might really suffer depression..
Mulling over certain things and i can't stop myself from crying.
I really have no plans now...i don't know what to do.
Despite so many many ppl trying to enlighten me,advice and encourage me....im still thinking.
Haish...but im so touched that there are many ppl out thr for me..............
Even though i really feel useless at this point of time.........
I pray hard to get into what i desire at least..actually also not very sure la sigh.
Well,great to have seniors ard telling me what i can do or even comfort me..
Daniel ong is one cos he actually helped me to ask for the course i wanna go....

2 more days to dateline and im still thinking hard for my 12 choices cos idw to regret anything in tertiary.........
At a state whereby it seems many doors are opened for me but actually they're closed :(
If only i applied DPA In july.....i probably will not be in this dilemma state..and srly hate it.
JPSAE......I dun even know how to apply..i dun have special talent in sch except leadership in guides and council.....ahhh.
My life is srly in deep shit now. FUCK IT.

Today was a bad day at work i swear.
I feel really guilty to all the chefs :((((((
First,i slipped in the kitchen and its like srly throw face :((((((((
And then,i cut my finger when chopping vegetables..this is not fun at all...
After which,i dropped many saucers while taking one only. zzz
Lastly,i make the flour thingy dropped and almost hit ah kang... but the bowl broke and the mixture were gone..
Everyone remained silent in the kitchen after that..i was damn guilty and keep saying sry but being ignored :((((
but after that ah kang still say wave gdbye to me..so he's not angry i guess? ;x
Really feel bad...very careless todayyyyy..haish.

And i dyed my hair............now its damaged badly and srly..lol..but i like the colour :) though not used to it yet hehehe. thanks to cousin for helping me :D

2012-01-09T23:01:00.002+08:00

Today i was given the verdict...tears of sadness and depression.
I must say i think i really tried my best.........but guess it was highly moderated.
Page 9 of 366..i thought my world has ended. Until many ppl came towards me...giving me enlighten words telling me that there ate still many doors for me..warm hugs and concern by my dearest teachers and friends... a sincere THANK YOU!
I felt like im a total disgrace lolol.
I cried so hard and broke down even before i had the courage to open my results slip!!!!!!!
And then...ms lee and mr subhash was right beside me..consoling me,telling me i did not bad...and i was like asking ms lee if im the one who flung bio cos there's only one failure. SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME (ITS NOT MEEEEEEEEE HENG AH )
So mr subhash goes :1,2,3 and he flipped my results slip and then ms lee pointed at my grades saying see,ALL PASS!!
Ok...delighted that i cleared my cores for god sake but................my grades are shit.
I srly cried like the world is ending cos i was feeling real devastated T.T
I didn't expect my dream to come true IN THE OPP WAY....FK this.
Well,its a reality already...i have to face it bravely and move on with life.
So tryiong hard to find my 12 desired courses because now that its limited.
So its like confirmed im gg RP...not bad alr :) near too + got kwee to help me w yr 1 too!
Hopefully can get what i want in RP...............PRAY HARD. DUN PLAY W ME ANYMORE :(

I know that familty are all disappointed in me..but no choice alr :(
Lucky kor didn't gave up on me and eagerly helping me to sort out my thoughts on what courses i can opt in all the polys but seems like rp is the only way out....
And he gotten a b3 after he retook! proud of him!!!!!!! :)

2012-01-08T22:50:00.009+08:00

Had a really great memorable weekend!
Ytd celebrated my bday in adcance with family~! <33333
First,i got clothes and new bag ^^
Then,had pariss for dinner... the int buffet was great! :)
After that,shopped for bedsheet..mine cost $90...wah.....dad is real nice to us :D
Then,we headed to have a ride at singapore flyer!!!!
Love the night scenes..hehe..memorable night w fam!! loves them loads!!!!
Dad spent a total of almost $1K.. Like srly omg :O

Today celebrated my adv bday with my darls!!!!!!!!

I really love my girls... they never fail to make me happy :))
I had the first throw face experience in life...
They blind-folded me all the way from yishun to ...... the surprised venue.
When they removed the blind fold,i was real touched!!!!!
I saw my girls holding bday cake for me and then i looked out..i was on top on sentosa!!!
I WAS IN THE CABLE CAR........My dream came true!!!!!!!!!!
My girls are so sweet,ohmygosh!!!!!!
Had snacks at the sapphire cafe..damn high class haha...
Slacked ard at USS area...hehe spammed photos!
Had a great day today!!!!!!! love it totally. Really memorable 17 for me :D

However.................tmr is the release of Os results :(
I must say im really not prepared! T.T
3 mths ago,i was mugging so hard for it..and now i need to face the verdict by cambridge.
Damn anxious,curious,excited,worried,scared and nervous.. Going bersek...
Decided to skip the collection of results w all my schoolmates..despite really wishing to see them for the last time but...i really cannot face it.
Going later with ah baoz i guess..we're both hum =((((
Lucky jiejie is acc us so i guess i need her warm huggsss when i breakdown upon opening the result slip..... Really feel like crying :((((( so scared.......
But i still dun have in mind what course to go for..ah...
HOPEFULLY TMR WILL BETEARS OF JOYS AND NOT SADNESS!!
Going temple w ah baoz tmr to pray hard X.X
Wished you're here with me to walk thru this.....

like this all the way...how unglam..dk if im on stomp ah LOL. Many ppl did laughed at me :(
Nevertheless,it was not easy for aili and lx to bring me along too!!! love them! muachhhk~

2012-01-05T23:08:00.002+08:00

Results is confirmed out this coming monday! OMG.. Just 4 more days..
My brain is like going bersek just the thought of it,seriously.
Feeling real tensed because im afraid of eng and a digit 2 in the front.
Im aiming for ard 15 but i know its impossible :(
MIRACLE PLEASE STRIKE...
Play hard this weekend before i face the reality....
The fear is haunting me badly..
I am not even sure what course i wanna pursuee like srly :(((((
I have 3 goals in life........ahh...
First is to be a social helper to the globeeeeeeeee. Therefore,i wanna help those elderly esp!!!!
Second,i want to open a bakery shop...
Lastly,i want to be part of Republic of Navy..to experience marine life.
These are the things i want to achieve in my life.
& of course, i need support from loved ones to make these come true..
and then i will feel that life is worth living for :)

Anw,payday on sat! Hehehe exciteddd cos imma go shopping spree ^.^
No time for open house :( Gonna ask ppl to get brochures for me instead.
Hmmmm.......many dramas to catch...but no time. GAH :X

2012-01-01T20:48:00.003+08:00

Hehehe spent a great night last night tgt with soonyu,daven,jack,weichong,liang and quanquan.
At least im not alone.
I thought no fireworks,but saw it through khatib and tv :)
Stayed till like 3...damn shag at work today..really busy :(
But had special meals..hehehehe :)

A brand new year to start afresh!

2011 had been a sucky year since bad things happened to me..
Fall out of love especially.......something etched in my heart.
Since its a new year,i was told to move forward instead of looking back the past.
Hence,i have to say..my new year's resolution is to dump away the past and move forward..no matter how tough it will be,i have to & i must.
Its not going to be easy because i know i still love him today.. whatever it is,its over........

2011 has also been great in making 4E1 more close tgt despite the conflicts again & again.

Also,finally managed to untie the knot in ying's heart after 2 years...and now,we're real gd friends...wish we stay like this forever.
The hard times mugging for Os are also over... but really miss those days....
No matter how complacent i am,i really enjoyed studying in NBSS throughout the 4 years.
No more regrets left anyways........ whatever the results,i know i did my best...like my chinese :D
Though im really worried...i have a back up plan.
I will not bother how people think of me anymore. I will do what i like instead.
I hope my dear friends will do it too :) ))) Love my girls ahh.....

Soon,moving to tertiary...All i can say is,im not prepared...to face the REAL WORLD.

Hopefully this year will be great!!!!!!! :) but really depends on my big day.........Pray hard.
I don't even have the courage to take with everyone...so imma like.......take myself after they take it.
Sigh............

2011-12-30T21:58:00.002+08:00

2 More weeks to my special day! hahaha.
Planned what i wanna do on that day already :)
Must enjoy myself before i reached legal eighteen :(
Tmr is the last day of 2011!
Finally the worst year is over...like seriously........ bad times that i nvr want to rmb and wished it didn't exist!
Meeting bro's friends for dinner at liang's hse.
Hope to have fun cos i tot i will be alone this new year's eve... =x
AND IM FRIGGING WORRIED FOR RESULTS :( ITS LIKE OUT SOON!!!!!!!!!!

2011-12-28T21:43:00.004+08:00

I could only say,yesterday was like the best day in 2011!

Met up with my dear fellow YPS classmates!!!
Really had a great time at sentosa despite the rain and NOT FORGETTING THE REUNION DINNER AT SWENSENS :D
Its really great to gather everyone and not talking about random or sec stuffs BUT OUR PRI SCH DAYS!!!
Slacked at mac after dinner and walked home together :) The benefits of almost all not moving hse and living in the same estate ^^
Hopefully i will get to see them again during cny !!!
I may not be the best organiser,but im trying my best to plan so that we will still keep in touch. Like finally,after 4 years.......i saw the One Brothers out again. Heh.
And glad that everyone is doing well in studies. Love them all!

Skipped work today as i am still feeling unwell :(
And still thinking if i should change to half-full timer..ahhhhhh @#$$#@@#

2011-12-25T22:55:00.003+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

This year is rather a typical day for me.
Lucky i still got presents from manager hilary,mei hua and DADDY!!<33

Countdown at workplace tgt with ah huat,sam,mei hua,jocelyn and ah wai my god bro chef!!
Heh. Had really a good time with them chatting. I thought its gonna be awkward! :p
Then shouted at 00:00...ppl were like not bothered by it,CHEH~
And i managed to bake cupcakes for all my kp peepoos! :)
Received suggestions for improvements by chefs and of course,complimented that they're nice!
Gonna bake cheese cake the next timeeeeee ^^
AND Ah wai might get transferred by end of jan :( Idwwwwwwwww,omg... He's like a really good god bro to me =(

Anws,i was late by 2hours to work today..ohmygod srly -_____- then worked till 9pm.
Actually its nice to work with AH FA! ^^ looking forward for day shifts with him next week!
Then...there's a new chef whose rank is higher than all the other chefs.
BUT SERIOUSLY,HE DAMN CMI...He spoils our mood everyday..without fail :X
Today he spilled trays of eggs...i witnessed the scene and im totally speechless..all the chefs were expecting smth before he took them so they were like "no eyes to see him taking" haha like srly..end up...GOOD GAME AH. LOL,diao him! =________=
For god sake,make our life easier instead of busier......alamak.

And i saw the big boss alr...handsome + young + capable rich guy.
Seeing andy tmr to discuss abt being changed to a full timer... idk if i should since many are telling me its definitely not worth...

Lastly,MY LAST WEEK TO ENJOY STUDENT BUS FARE RATES!!!!!!!!! WALIEWWWWWWWWW =(

2011-12-21T22:09:00.005+08:00

So far..it has bee a week + working!!!!
Really tired..the only looking forward time of the week is my off day~~~
However,all my off day are packed for something since i don't have the time to meet all my friends as usual :(
Really miss alot people...but..........so frigging tired to look for them..esp at this time........

I don't know how to express my feelings,i am just feeling really down.
The release of N level results was something for me to worry for my dearest bff.....
I can't give her any best answers... i know im such an useless friend :( Gave her stupid solutions.
But i really don't know what to do also..just tell her whats the best for her...
No matter what she choose,i will definitely support her all the way...
NOW,I AM SO AFRAID OF 10JAN!!!!!!!!!
I can't face reality...so i guess i will take my results the next day ALONE instead.
Mind going berserk........

Christmas is coming...Year 2011 is coming to an end SOON :(
Not celebrating this year..but rather,working!
Baking cupcakes for my chefs and colleagues :) Hope they like it! ^^
Next sunday...no more student pass..no more cheap bus fares..which mean i need to walk alot to save on transport =( Life is getting worse...........all the more i think i need you...

I find my previous post the most stupiest ever!!!!!!!
Though he's a nice guy,but no possibility!!!!!!!! hahaa!
Now i have chefs as my god-brothers ^^!
Good bros will help me when im kinda bullied =p One of them who stayed near to me will even wait for me to knock off and we will go home tgt! hehe.
Kind of bliss to meet such great chefs............................. :)
And sadly,Leroy is getting transferred to tamp this weekend :( gonna miss his handsome face srly!! gawddddddddddd. Life is unfair!BUT GUESS WHAT? FOUND HIS FB! Hahaa but dun dare to add =(

2011-12-14T21:55:00.003+08:00

So..........today is already my fifth day at work!
Seriously,just love my job!!!!!! :) Chefs all really damnnnn awesome <33333
The feeling of being doted is simply awesome!
Besides,i somehow got interested with ine chef hehehehe :D
And today he cooked me breakfast! AWWWWW! Love this feeling ^.^
Also,ah fa asked if i want to be with him! Haha oh my goodness~
He say suitable then be together,if tgt not suitable,still can be friends ma.. hahaha~
But first,we got to know each other! heh~therefore,he actually asked for my fb!!! woooo!
Hopefully there's good progress but im really afraid LOL.
And when he knew im single,he kind of smile so happily! hahahaaaaaaaa!

Manager Leroy is also another handsome chap uh! & he's really cute and funny.. as in the way he talks to me! LOL.
But i prefer cheff :P
Really had a good time working with everyone cos some collegues are real nice to me as well.
Especially meihua..she feeds me cake at times~sweeet girl srly :)
Looking forward to work everyday now! :D

AND OH YA,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANNA~!!!
Celebrating with her tmr! Shall blog more this weekend! ^^

2011-12-09T21:44:00.003+08:00

Here to blog about my first day of work in kungfu paradise :D
ACTUALLY,I KINDA LOVE WHAT IM DOING!!!!!! HEHEHEEEEEEE.
I guess this is really a rare opportunity for me to learn so much.
However,there's many things to remember..esp salad :X I dun like LOL
And,i did the separation of egg yolk and white..now i got phobia for eggs HAHAHA :/
Initially,i really failed in splitting them....but gradually it was okay.
I must thank all the chef for being so tolerant and really sorry to cause trouble :X
Overall,it was okay :) Kelvin,who is the kitchen head,is real nice to me!!!!
He keep asking if im bored HAHA cos when there's no ppl,i just stare into blank space lololol..
But when its busy,i keep hearing my name being called...haha stresss ahhh..
But i really enjoyed myself there though. Not stuffy at all,still got air con! But legs are tired uh.
Working almost everyday from 11-7pm~~~requested for sat to be off day hehe ^^

Dinner with daddy! Just the two of us.
Chit-chatted along the way...Seems like rlsp and work is a big headache to him now :(

Greatest achievement : Chefs say i ease their job :)
Well..first qth i was asked : Whats ur name.
Second...... : where do u stay?
And third, have u eaten?
Hahaha .. but kinda scared some chefs cos one of them warned me :Here alot wolfs,ask me to be careful LOL which i think he is included too...

2011-12-06T22:08:00.003+08:00

Ytd was zx's bday!
Happy Birthday my girl! Hope you had a good time w us though it was kind of boring :(
Surprised her at the gv as we failed to go her house *feeling guilty*
Sang bday song loudly for her heheheheeeee.
Anws,we watched "Happy Feet 2" ! PENGUINS SO CUTE AWWW.

So....after tedious job hunting,i finally got a job in ssc.
YES AH NO NEED TRAVEL FAR FAR.
But....before he call for work shifts,i should not be so happy..later another one cheat my feelings :(
OOPPS,I actually cancelled the job offer in isetan...Pay too low and too far :(

Anyways...bastard is so bad......................................... basic politeness also dun have.
Srly i don't know whats keeping me to forget you.
But the moment i think of the happy times,the smile...i can't bear to.
Knowing its impossible,yet clinging on to my own feelings..this really sucks.
I don't know how to describe myself. Just really dumb.

2011-12-02T20:23:00.002+08:00

Had gossip clique chalet on 19-21 :)
Had a good time with the peepoosssssss. Gambler queens and kings!
I broke record cos i slept less than 6 hours within 48 hours!!!! :O
Had a heart to heart talk with jasper on second night and its really a great feeling! :)
We should do that more often!!!!!!!!!!

Hope to see everyone soon...however,many things happened.............
Somehow the worst month is over................here come dec.........
Ahh,too many emotionally down recently and all i wish is ppl to stay happy~
Not to mention myself,somehow really find life meaningless.
Lost direction,lost pathway because $ is the root of the problem.
Found a job but i feel cheated.........dk lahh :( not even reaching 1k per month when im working full time like srly,NOT WORTH................Town somemore..reallly reluctant,fk.

Celebrated zx's bday in advance as ah tan is flying to taiwan tmr :(((
Really had great fun at sentosa!
Don't even know if i can do that again soon...........

My last weekend to play...shall enjoy to the very max ah......
I don't know why am i so down nowadays.
I just feel...friends left and family do not care.
I have nobody to trust anymore except myself.
Fuck friends who come near me just to hear stories and then become some betrayer.
Really hate people like this.
After 4 years,i learnt a priceless experience is that..there is nobody to trust except yourself.
But sometimes its really vexed to keep things to myself.
But even if i tell/say,who will give a damn to listen to me.... T.T

Shan Neng srly look like steven lim -.-~

Gonna see her on results day :( misssssss her!

Gossip girls with bday boy!

GOSSIPERS :)

2011-11-26T00:25:00.002+08:00

Feeling so emotional. I don't know why.
I told myself to stop thinking,stop wondering but my brain ah...can't stop it.
Feel devastated. Feel so miserable. Feel so tortured.
Nobody understand even if i say out.
I began to wonder,the bestie i used to trust all these while had betrayed me somehow.
I mean its like why tell others abt my private life...can't i have the rights to live my life w/o ppl knowing my stuffs?
First,you told ppl abt her. Now,you told them abt him.
I am so disappointed..............how to trust u agn when u say u will be thr for me all the time... =(
I am so confused seriously.

Went to have lunch w kwee ytd and he acced me to buy frogs,HAHA SERIOUSLY GROSS.
Then went to his fav place as usual........... dk why,certain memories struck me.... 2 yrs ago...
Went jogging in the night with him.
Feels good after that as i felt refreshed somehow :)
Planned to meet weekly to run and even gym tgt!! Time to lose some weights.. haha

By the way,i forgot the pw for the blog btw him and me.
Like srly I FORGOT! Memory loss it it?!!?!?
Well,perhaps a good sign for me to stop blogging abt him,to forget him officially.
Afterall,he's a coward who don't even dare to face me after so much things i did. Might as well forget it..
Haisssssssss.
Feel so regret,feel so foolish,feel so bitch.
Why did i even give in...it srly ruin me cos those images kept on flashing back,haunting me...........

2011-11-24T22:30:00.003+08:00

HI O's over(long long long time ago :P )!!!

Too busy to updateeeeeeee. Ooops.
Been a month since i blogged,amazing!!!!!!!!!
Anyways,Os is not as scary as what i though. IT WAS PRETTY EASY!!!!
Hopefully i did well....praying for MIRACLE GOOD results..
Had loads of fun in nov but also the worst month cos im so broke!

Genting trip with the girls was fantastic! Love the weather.
But what sucks is when you're with a grp of iphone users..when there's wifi,i began sitting & staring in space,thoughts wandering far off my soul.......
Long bus ride there and homed,and i literally slept throughout the jouney. Its like..SLEEP IS NEVER ENOUGH HAHAH. U give me 24hrs,i still can sleep :)
So reached thr on first day was alr mid noon...we lunched,shopped ard(bought a red hoodie) and NUA in the hotel like nobody's business~
Second thr got up super early for theme park..ended up dragging till late morning then we went,hais.
However,only managed to sit 2 rides..seriously waste money@#$%#@!@
I wanted to sit cockscrew which is the 360 degrees but odd number,so i got to give up :( SERIOUSLY DEVASTATED MAX..cos thats the only thing love in there..
Played cheat in the hotel and thats abt it for my trip....

Then it was TPRAWKS. I had the highest time in my life during jam and hopz!
I CAN'T BELIEVE I DANCED W MY FELLOW CRAZY FRIENDS WHERE EVERYONE GO SO HIGH! Hahaha.
Really a wonderful experience....
Had 2 eyecandies in tp~ they're so dashing,melt die me :D but aiya...see once and then bye D:
Oh ya,DRAGONBOAT WAS REALLY AWESOME TOO!! (though i became tanned like srly)
It might be my last time...really had a whale of time :) Also got drenched cos i was splashed by other team.. I didn't even splash back but just avoiding and hiding like a tortoise ah! haha!

Finally a time to rest my body at home ...
Job hunting today was...........(what do u think?!) i hope espirit will call me :(
Chalet nxt week and hopefully i can get a job to work in dec! :)

Now i miss schooling,i miss teachers,i miss my classmates and schoolmates,i miss canteen food,i miss assembly,i miss CCA,i miss lessons.........................
Can't believe thats it. Somehow no longer looking forward to poly...feel suckish to be separated w my friends.
Worst still,there's a minority close friends right now..all have distant away..all have changed..
I can't imagine the days i have to face for the following days,months and even years w/o them.
The ones i love,the ones i care,i the ones i treasured,eventually left me.
Now,its back to the way we started. STRANGERS.
There's one side of you i never knew & all the things you'd say were never true.

Photos!!!!!!! :D

2011-10-22T16:52:00.002+08:00

2 MORE DAYS.
I FEEL SO DOOMED.
I hope the GOLDEN WORD for narrative is "success" so i will own the paper :(
Pray hard now...........................pls dun be something hard.
Really can't wait to end Os.....................i've been counting for this day.
Not ready also no choice,i don't wanna drag it further. Torturing ttm!

HAISH....
Ytd i was so pissed and feeling really fucked up -_______-
I got prank for the first time in my entire life.
To whoever did that,i hope karma hits you. Eat sweets pls choke!!!!! :@
Well,i also know who's my real friends for that.
For classmates who srly dun give a damn shit,i feel utterly disappointed.
I don't feel like talking or even seeing you in my entire life.
If this is the way you treat me,i will pay u double back!
Thanks for all the sarcasicm,thanks all for putting such a fake mask for this 2 years.
I was so wrong about you guys. esp that bitch.
I had enough,thats the end. GOODBYE.

2011-10-14T13:16:00.005+08:00

Real busy this month.
GRADUATED ON WEDNESDAY!
No longer a navalite :( But at least we soar like eagles,graduate #likeaboss :D
It was pretty torturing to leave everyone!
Made cards to those who gave me a deep impact throughout this 4 years.
Every fond memories with every single people i made in NBSS will be deeply etched in my heart! Speeches was such a bore!!!!!!!
Well,went up stage to take the grad folder and i could feel mr tay's sweat! hahaaaa XP
Spammed lotsa photos despite i have no camera!!!! T.T
Gave ms lee,ms phua and ms marina a hug too!!!! So warm and loving hehe
I'll miss everyone :( No matter how much i used to groan abt school.......

Worst thing..fell sick when i reached home..had been unwell for 3 days and this is really terrible. Os coming..i need to get back my healthy immune system D:
Slept throughout ytd,doing nothing cos i cant even get up from the bed :(
Nobody was even at home to look after me..felt soo pathetic.
But im glad i have bff who constantly text me to check if im ok! For that,i really appreciate his concern :)

NOW ITS TIME TO FIGHT WITH THE BATTLE! :)

POA CLASS! Dr Memories Cr class of 4e1/4e2 :(

wuxi clique :D

gossip clique!

Now im wondering..should i join alumni...

2011-10-03T18:35:00.002+08:00

October is here. This is really scary,i swear.
I think the greatest challenge i face in life is FEAR.
This 4 letter word often make my world crashed into million pieces.
Will i be able to walk out of it,i really have no idea.
Nobody understands NO MATTER HOW MUCH I SAY.

When friends claim they care,ask you to share..after saying,how much does it help?
When i really need some solution to certain issue,who is really able to help?
When i feel down,who do i turn to who is willing to hear me out?
When i say i feel miserable and terrible,how many take my words for real?
Sometimes i feel like learning her...to leave this world for good.
After im gone,who's left to shed tears for me also?
I feel that im incapable to handle my emotions anymore.
I may appear to be fine,but deep down..im crying and bleeding.
How many and who really understand the pain i am suffering?
There's so much i want to tell my dear love ones...but i cannot.
They may be a solution but also a cause of problem since they're the root of it.
I fear..I feel life is getting darker day by day.
I use studies to make myself runaway. But how long do i run? :(

2011-09-30T23:22:00.002+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday to Liang & Quan. Had fun at chalet and got to know YSS tcher! Hee.

Prelim 2 this week.. So damn tiring.........
Finally its over.. Os coming then :(
Today's the last day of sep...here we come october,A MONTH TO MUG LIKE THERE'S NO TMR!
Wed attended night study for the first time ever since i went in sec 2?
It was really fun...so much laughters actually!! :)
Then phone gt locked,all thanks to joeseph! Got it fixed w jack and pika just now!

I feel really unhappy this week.. I don't know why,but i feel angry easily.
Every little things pisses me off the whole day and yeah,ruined my beautiful day.
School's ending in a week's time or so yet im not enjoying my life to the fullest.
Everyone is talking about we have 1 week left in sch...its so sad srly :((
I guess on that day,we will all cry badly...........T_______T

When im down,i actually know who to turn to..who will be there for me.
And they are always my wonderful friends. =) Thanks for guiding me through,the toughest time in my life.
I feel so dumb,thanks to DTTK.
Even if whole world thinks im over w it,actually i am not.

2011-09-24T23:04:00.002+08:00

Left with a month and this is no joke.......................
I am feeling the doom atmosphere.
Seeing the mock and practice papers i have been going through right now,really dampen my confidence.
I have the motivation yet lack the confidence.
Can i just be clever for once in my whole life?
I really need to clear Os to choose my future................ =(

Thurs went to MBS w lx and st :D IT WAS SIMPLYYY AWESOME!
However,the pool was icy cold......i was freezing at the top like srly...freezing!!! no joke.
Had a great timeeeeeeeee but if only zx and aili was thr,it would be perfect!
The view from the top of MBS down to other buildings in the city was marvelous!
Well,there's one more chance after Os with my girls YAYNESS ^^

Friday...is one day that i no longer look forward to. 2 more weeks to grad...4 more fridays before i sit for eng papers followed by the others.
No matter what,luck is not what i need now.
I really don't wanna waste the 4 years education in NBSS,i want to bring pride to myself :)
Jiayou,angxinyi!
Today went to chomp chomp with geraldine :D Missed her alot and had a great time w her!
Dreamt of "5499" and she bought 4D for it.. It came out 5949! WE WENT ARGHHHHHHHHH!
So nxt time i dream of 4 numbers it could be a luck sign :P

Though at times i really feel terrible..not w school but that bastard's issue,i know i ought to settle w whats the most impt right now.....
But recently,i started thinking how are you,how have u been doing..i miss you alot etc...
Rewinding every single day with him...thinking of how much happy times we had but it turned out to be a pretend? or...forcing? Because he never had true feelings for me..
I thought feelings will be gone when hatred invaded,but i was wrong.
Feelings invaded hatred...The love remains.
This is the suckish part of me.

2011-09-18T19:49:00.003+08:00

Another week gone.
Getting used to studying every single day cos i know i have to get focused and things into my brain.
Its somehow late to start now but must really chionggggggg for the very last 5 weeks!
Really can't wait for Os to be over. I want a new life and a change of style :)
Ytd ah tan acced me to town and bugis for shopping! :D
A little cash tight but also didn't really see clothes i really like.
Got paris top and pink shirt and my lovely slippers after so longg! HAHAH
Then i was short of 90cents to get my paris top..so desperate till we almost asked from strangers!
Lucky saw her mum since she's coming to fetch us home heheheeeeee.
Her family is always very nice! :) MBS with them on coming thursday!
Hahah what the shit,Os like coming and im still having fun -_________-
Chalet next sunday.......but without kor kor,i really dunno what i will do there..hmmmm.

Hope i have enough time to memories every single thing. PLEASE!

2011-09-15T19:46:00.003+08:00

I wish you would see this. I don't know if you will ever see this,but whatever.
That day when we met,it really gave me a shock.
After certain thoughts,i think that i should have the rights to choose my friends...
Thus,i really don't want you to appear in my life anymore cos i know we will no longer be able to face each other and we will never be able to get back to how we started as friends.
I had enough,i had wake up from my dream to reality.
Maybe i really sucks to be your girl. It was a mistake right from the beginning. (
You don't have to purposely to post anything for me to see cos i really never want you back after that night when you left.
So i blocked and unfollowed you so that i can really get you out of my mind,permanently.
Thanks so much in the past,i learn how it feels like to be with somebody i love yet it was all along my own wish.. I gave you my best and this is how you treat me..
I am silly,dumb and naive to have even give you the chance.
But i promise myself,i will lead a better life. And i really hope you too.
Goodbye stranger,our friendship simply ended. No matter what,its impossible to be the same anymore........
I hope you will remember your one and only promise for me. Thats all i ever wish for..

2011-09-10T01:01:00.000+08:00

So much things to blog but i don't have the time anymore.
Os next month,LIKE SERIOUSLY? From 6 months to 6 weeks now.

Happy Belated Birthday to didi! :D heheeheheeeeeee LOVE him max max!!

Thurs went bottle tree park to fish with weijie,yujie,ah huat,gillian,clara,bs and chuinann.
Initial plan was to play candles hur hur~Nvm still had fun hahahaa.

Class having some conflict over minor issus...
Really see no point since we're graduating in a month's time..shouldn't we treasure the time tgt instead??????? argh idk idk. Think its okay now,hopefully.

TGIF was great spent :D Went to amk for pool with clara,yj,bs and ca~the usuals ^.^
It feels great to enter when we're legal 16 except lbs ahh!! Well...he sneaked in anws haha.
Then headed down to lot 1 to find kim and geraldine as they were there to see MP and Yen-J. HAHAH CRAZY FANS. Had fun with the people anw :D

Sat went semb to play candles with celestine,jinghui,clara,bs and ca.
HEHE IT WAS FUNNNNNNNN~ ^.^
But CA injured his feet so badly that he got a super big blister as well some small ones...
Get well soon dude~~stupid him play with the fire and put off using his legs =x
Went broadway for supper and we hanged out till so late that there wasn't any bus home :( Ended up taking train with ca.

2011-09-02T23:21:00.001+08:00

September is here.

I left with exactly 2 months to subjects papers and less than 2 months for eng and math.
Screw my life. Im still wasting my life over here.
I am still wasting my time to bother things that is not worth it at all.
Many things has changed this year. There is nothing i can do to reverse anything.
Jack told me "Things happen for a purpose,to make us learn. Live for urself and not others"
Kweetiong said "If cannot forget,accept it. Lost motivation,find it back."
I think what they said are very true after serious thought.......
I ought to stop being so pessimistic as im not the worst in earth still.
There are more impt things for me to think instead :)

I must mug hard and stop socialising!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Seems impossible task but for the sake of my future~i have to,i must do it.
Prelims was a wake-up call for me. I flung 4 subjects out of 6.
If Os were to be like this,i think i lived for nothing in my 16 years -______-
I should not be complacent like what kor always remind me.
I should stop feeling depress,instead think of ways to salvage my situation when i still can do something about it..Before its too late.
To conclude,this year is really bad. Many things happened,many people change,many mindset got worst,many attitude's became two-sided..many many many things in my daily life is cursing me to shorten my lifespan.
Of course,there are still sweet things my dear friends did for me..to make me think i exist.
I appreciate everyone's love,care and concern. I know at the end of the day,who my real friends are still.
No matter what,the friendship bond will not break despite our busy schedule,leading us to lost touch for a very long time.

Ytd celebrated Teachers's Day! Happy Teachers' Day!!! ^.^
Our lass year in NBSS,but i did not make it a memorable one :X
Well,the best gift will be the released of Os results in jan2012 anw!! hahaha.
I thank every single teacher who had taught me,because without their guidance and teachings,i won't have come so far till today.
No matter how much we hate school at times,still..im beginning to treasure the leftover weeks in NBSS.
A sudden thought of don't feel like graduating because i can't bear to.
And i wonder what next year will be like when i step into tertiary world.. sigh.
Didn't went back YPS this year as Mdm Kuek was away with her family overseas :(

Thats all for today.
My hols is here but i have tons of mugging and hw to do..Enjoyment next thurs w friends :)
I hope i can follow the timetable i planned for myself....

With Lu lao shi!!!!!!! My first A for Os *credits her* :D

2011-08-30T20:09:00.002+08:00

I have been slacking for the past 4 days. This is very bad.
Its like im on the hols mood alr,which is not the time at all.
What the hell am i thinking!! :@
Ytd was supposed to go for kite-flying,so we played bball and it started to rain. Thus,kite failed.
Then went to do my testimonial~

Today had a great day shopping :D Well,no money sucks.
But still with the people you enjoy hanging out,its the best of the best~

2 more days of school and HI THE SO CALLED HOLS. But its time for me to work out on my notes to become a memoriser soon :( this is sad...

AND TCHERS DAY,NOT GG TO YPS cos mdm kuek wont be in SG :( THIS IS VERY SAD.....

2011-08-27T15:04:00.000+08:00

The former head,who has been my classmates for these 4 yearsssss.

Current head,who never fails to have this charming face HAHA

Mrs kim,despite being so ****,still thank her for everything.

My step down cert and medal~

Pathetic 6 girls in sec 4 council,BUT WE SURVIVED VERY WELL :D

Thursday was student investiture!!!!!!!! :D and NOOB'S BDAY,HAPPY TWENTY TO HIM!
Finally step down but quite sad. 3 years passed so fast,completed my duties to the school :)
Was so nervous when receiving the cert and medal from commander RSS Valour. hehe!!!
I think navy guys are charming HOHOHO.
After the solemn ceremony,took photos with others since its our last time in blazer.
Gonna miss all the fun in council especially the jokes and great time we share.
Sures also praised me in his speech ah,NOT BADZ LOL.
Then went for booster session 2~Hope this motivation will last me throughout the 2months left.

Long weekend : Must think of how to write my own testimonial for gruadation,must complete hw and notes!
Many things to do but its ok,i will manage my time and get it done by tues :D

2011-08-23T20:53:00.001+08:00

Great day exploring Marina ytd~! Just like a tourist for a day.
Heheh walked the whole entire route and i am so happy to visit the HELIX BRIDGE!!!!!!
Legs aching but really had a lot of fun with Jinsan,Clara and huatkit! :D
No plans what to do,where to go hence,we wandered just like tourists.
POLAROIDS TOGETHER YAYNESS! :D
So much laughters along the way and that bhk is sucha complain king cos his pants were so loose. Ended up,he kept adjusting like one unglam guy in SG! TSKK.
Kept scaring clara and ah huat about the seventh month. Damn funny. (we were so noisy till i was afraid we would be on stomp,LOL)
They were so afraid that they were so desperate to remove the clip from them! HAAHAHA.
I hope such outing will happen again cos its so relaxing. =)

Today i slacked,did abit of bio and TV!
School tmr...I dread the arrival....................................
Best of luck for the results :X

A month more to English Os......................shit it!

2011-08-21T14:25:00.000+08:00

Finally,i am over with prelims and practicals! :D
TGIF cum Chuin ann's bday!
Headed to vivo city with bday boy,jinghui,ceslestine,yujie,bosheng,willis and weizhong!
Watched "Rise of the apes" VERYYY NICEEEEEEEEEEE ^.^
Then walked ard while waiting for K to have room for us. Had fun at toyrus! hehehee.
Then sang K and a mini surprise for chuin ann~hahas.
After which,went for dinner and slacked at the third floor:)
Chatted,rant and played true and dare. Get sabo only. LOL.
Reached home at midnight......

Saturday was a bore. Nothing to do.

Sunday. I rot infront of tv and com haha NO BOOKS!!
Steamboat tonight :)

2011-08-18T15:28:00.003+08:00

DISTINCTION FOR MT ORAL,OVERALL I GOT A2!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
Super elated OHMYGOODNESS!
I was so anxious,so worried. I even thought i have to retake it if i got a B3.
End up,it was a shocking surprise.
Due to tech problems in the morning,released of results was delayed.
Suppose to know before POA P2...then i only know it after that while all Addmath ppl alr know.
But i see their faces when paper was about to end,made me so panic!!!!!
After that,all of us ran to the back of the hall to see our results. Damn epic.
I even teared cos i was really happy! TEARS OF JOY HEHEEEEE!
GAVE LULAOSHI A HUG!!! :D I think she deserve the credits! *biggest hugs for her*
So i secure one distinction now!! YEAH!! Must work hard for other subjects alr!! :)

Tmr will be the last day of prelims and im gonna have a break on mon and tues! Hehehe must go out chill lax!
VIVO CITY TMR,CANNOT WAIT TO CELEBRATE AH!
But bio spa 3...jialat!! :( But last one hohohoho!

2011-08-13T19:15:00.002+08:00

So........Math... i have no idea if i am going to clear them :(
Anws,whats worried us was MT results.....Supposedly thought it was thursday.
Chen Wang even lied to me say i gotta a B4.
Seriously man,i wanna cry out... Cos if i never get B3,imma retake -.-
Haish. SPA 3 physicsssssssssss!! And yes,im done with practicals for phy ^.^
But,i screw up it so badly that i think i flung alr -_____-
Mugging so hard,really tough. Having a bad headacheeeeeeeee~ Lack of sleep! idk why haha.

Tomorrow going ahma's house for dinner,i think thats thew only thing im looking forward hahaha!
I miss family gatherings. Everyone is so busy =(
Having eng oral on monday ------- REALLYYY AFRIAD T.T
Having chi result on thursday ------ IMMA FAINT,either tears of joy or sadness.
Having Bio SPA 3 on fri ----------- And no more practicals!!!!!!!!!! also,chuin ann's sweet 16 woo~

Can't wait for next week to pass fast......i have tons of things going in my mind.
But i know no matter what,i must press on. (:

2011-08-09T18:05:00.003+08:00

HAPPPPYYY BIRTHDAYYYY TO SINGAPORE!

Place where i belong,place where my heart beats.

Last year of NDP celebration in NBSS.. And it somehow sucks.
First time no parade........and i was even late for school.. lol.
Well,no late slip hahaha lucky me~!
Watched floorball games and concert in the hall.
However,the school not enthu enough to sing the songs loud and high enough so i find it quite boring.
Besides,lessons after that. But i enjoyed the 1 to 1 poa with ms phua and we discussed alot about the future. Weewoo.

Now its the mugging time so..study and nothing else.
But i find my brain too rusty and its hard to polish them.
Too many things to memories and no time............hais,ok stop my excuses!

Chinese Os results soon...on thursday? QUITE WORRYING.
If no B3,i shall retake D:
Fri is phy SPA 3. Yes ah,after that goodbye to practicals in my life.....
Next monday is Eng Oral too :X IM SO NOT READY.
Time is ticking way too fast,nobody waits..........................

2011-08-06T12:39:00.001+08:00

FIRST OF ALL,HAPPY LEGAL 18 TO MY DEAREST MOMOCHEN ! :D

Went to celebrate with her ytd at her house!! hehehe
Hope she like the card i made for her,the choco we gave her and of course,the fun we spent tgt!
Took many polaoroids ^.^ All beautiful memories of 5 of us ; Anna,Kim,Lixuan,Chen & me!
Oh yeah,eng prelims X.X pray that i did well.....cos i also dunno what to comment.

Went to study with yujie and coincidentally,met 4 other gossip boys and so,headed for lunch tgt tgt with chuin ann too~~ What a group of jokers!!!!! :D

2011-08-03T22:38:00.003+08:00

Today is a special day.
Happy Birthday to you,my dearest love.
I love you more than anyone else in this world,i swear.
If only you're still with us,i believe we will lead even a happier life.
But i know its impossible and we had learn to move on.
Just want you to know,i have not forget this day,and i still love you. <3

And i passed my math P1! Though just a border pass,but yeah my efforts are shown!
Prelims starts on friday. I have not start studying but GOING TO..........
Somehow there is this distraction that is affecting me but.. i told myself,i will lead a better life and thus,this is one of my motivation.
So..........................my main focus is Os now!!!!! yes yes yes.

2011-07-31T14:14:00.001+08:00

This week was a great great week because i passed both math and physics! YAY =D
To me,improvements is part of my successes. I will continue to strive hard^.^
Thursday we celebrated Racial Harmony. Great too see most of our cohort wearing costumes!!
Then also celebrated daddy's birthday hehehehe!!! Hope he like the cake and card i designed:)
Also did my last biology practical..sad to say..i screwed up with my partner,alison. Totally fail!

Friday was the official ROD opening ceremony. I really felt stress for my usher duty......
Well,its my last time plus its a formal event that the school is really proud of,therefore i am glad that i have a part to involve as well. Despite all the wasted time i had!! :P

Ytd went to esplande to enjoy the free NDP show HAHA. Fireworks was awesome!
Then we head to novena for koran bbq buffet~nice yummy!! But i scalded my thumb :( thanks to kor ahh!!!!!!!
Then went to udders to look for soonyu. And i saw moonbuck,caicai and eileen!!!! wah,really miss working with them!!!!!!! 1 year passed so fast.........

Later going play some lazer shooting game. Waa,i scared of dark ah!! hahahaha.
7th month also start! Must be more careful oh~~ :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHAFIQA ILLINIA TOO!!! LOVE HER LOADS! :)

My 1 day bf on 28.07.11 but broke off immediately when 12am strike to 29.07.11 LOL

♥♥♥my dearest girlfriends♥♥♥

THE GOSSIP CLUB~First reunion!!

with mdm low!~!! OMG I MISS HER SO SO SO MUCH! Glad to see her that evening^.^

if you really want to end it this way,
i will go along.

2011-07-24T11:22:00.002+08:00

First,HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST NU ER! ♥

This is so damn stress..tests and tests but i got some 3 joyful things to share.
I officially finished chinese papers :) shall pray for good results now!
LC on tuesday.....actually it was so easy and i guess i scored full marks! woo hoo =D
Then phy test! FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME,I PASSED WITH FLYING COLOURS!
So duber happy la ^.^ Feel like sharing this joy with that someone but well,who cares.
However,i flung math so badly that i think i can go bang wall.
Hope i will do well and improve with the help from clara now! :D
Fri was the preview for official opening. Kind of stress for my duty as i am so afriad to lead ppl to their seats LOL
Many seniors came back,really great to see them and i miss the time when i have them around in school. (i wonder if he even saw me,sigh)
Catched up with the junior guides and i know they are really training hard,all the best girls! <3
Also catched up with kahwei~woooooo kept on disturbing him hehehhhhhhh.
SAW TEACHER THAM TOO!!! After 5 years,i didn't expect i am able to see her in person again! :D Really great to see her and she actually recognise me! hehehehe ^.^

Ytd went to msia hehehe i love how daddy crap with me!!
Going to get new spects later on yay! :)
Tmr is a week of tests again ):
Celebrating racial harmony on thurs when its was last thurs LOL.

EXACTLY 3 MORE MONTHS TO FIRST BIG DAY! =(

I think i really mind......how people think and judge me.
When i am feeling empty..i miss you so..much.

2011-07-16T22:35:00.002+08:00

Sometimes,i really felt something in incomplete within me..
Well,it can't be helped.
Stress week is here......remedials and night class starts.
Prelims is coming and i have not started revising srly.
Class tests on the way,i srly feel very stress.
Life is like being ridiculous sometimes.
Dad wants me to study hard and show him good results,this will be my motivation.
Going to chop my fringe soon~
Going to get new spects~ ^.^
Going to start mugging soon~no more laziness!!!!
LISTENING COMPRE on tuesday..and i'm officially over chinese!!! Results out soon =C

Official's opening is also coming which means,PRELIMS IS REACHING.
Been staying late for rehearsals and i feel that its really waste of time.
I hope coming fri and actual ceremony i won't screw my duty up.
Many things going on,feel so lost at times.
Council...what shit..I still prefer guides.
Now that hk is out,i felt so lonely.
President want me to be good to him so that my name will appear on investiture.
Come on,i think i have been good since sec1 =x
Whatever it is,nothing no longer matters to me right now,except to make myself happy and study real hard for the last 3 months.
I believe i will get through and get over it! :)

2011-07-08T16:44:00.002+08:00

This whole week is screwed up badly..
But now,i sorted out and yes,the following days will be better.
I live for myself,with a circle of friends who really care for me.
In the end,i learnt that friendship mean more than anything else in this world.
Remaining as friends will make things more beautiful,there won't be any shattered memories~
No matter how long it will take,just return back to the normal self.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PIKACHUUUUUUUU.
Thank you for always being there and i hope you enjoy your last 1* birthday with a blast! :)

Happy Belated Birthday to Mrs Koh,Jing Hui and Ermanda!!

2011-07-05T10:51:00.003+08:00

Youth day.....spent on watching Monte Carlo!! I wanna go france badly.
Ytd went out with pri sch without siting :(
Then head to changi airport to study,like ended up talking.
And i swear it was the worst night ever in my whole entire life.

Now i find alot places very disgusting.......................srly. disgusting ttm.
I cannot forget and cannot stop thinking.
I need some escape route to the paradise.
I can no longer believe anymore because it never lasted for me.
Every story has a tragic end. And mine,somehow ruined my whole entire life.
I really hate it,for committing that mistake.
And right from the beginning,it was already a mistake yet i didn't realise it to prevent further mistakes.
Its all my fault,blame no one. It was my choice,so i have no choice. Even regretting is too late.
But what about the guy ppl used to claimed he is good?
This is how he treated me,rmb.

TESTS THIS WEEK,do you think i can fucking concentrate?

2011-07-01T16:05:00.003+08:00

So first week of school has gone. Like seriously fast! :(
YTD WAS MT ORALS...i think i screw up like upside down?
Passage was so easy but i was so nervous until i misread alot! BOOO =(
Conver was so horrible... i kept doing hand signs because i was sooooooo afriad and couldn't form proper sentence at all......Hope they will be lenient!!!
Sweat..............................................................................................
Today was seriously a wasted day!!!!! be it in school or home.
Only had a period of geo and the rest were free periods.

I miss CCA.. i miss the good old times... if there's a rewind,i would work harder and cherish it again.

I want to go the moon one day. Staying on earth makes my breathing become difficult.
People tends to misunderstand certain things or words said,hence i lost a friend.
Now,avoiding is what we do when we sees each other.
I just don't understand,why ppl can't let go and move on but instead,bear the grudge.
It makes you so unhappy and also the people around you.
You do not want to clear it with the main ppl involved instead,going round telling others.
Is this fair to us? We've been tgt since sec 1..and this year is so crucial..
Once you say you leave,won't you think twice of what we had gone through all these years?
Really that easy to let go? Just because of one incident,you sent our friendship to be sentenced for life..........worth it? really?

2011-06-25T13:58:00.003+08:00

Whoa another last week of hols passed.
School on monday,damn sian only :( Can't believe Os is coming and im not prepared. Ok,i should not say this anymore,must start preparinggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon and Tue went sch for official opening rehearsal with beloved~
Like srly waste of time!!!!!! :@
Thurs had guides BBQ. It was awesome cos i love the girls :D
Well,starting and maintaining fire was the most tedious job ever and it was my first time! D:
Anws,we all enjoyed ourselves :)
Then ytd........went to sing k and movie with conrad,jinsan,clara,jiameng,yujie and joseph :)
It was a great day hahaha but i felt so bad for going late and left earlier.
Well,must thank conrad for the movie treat ^.^ he is a great friend uh..

Today is saturday............tmr is sunday. I dread the arrival of monday.
It will be some stressful months following as prelims are coming and chinese Os results~! :X Manyyy things.............. i can do it !

At least i did my work and at the same time,enjoyed my june hols.
Now,its time to mug hard and achieve my desire L1R4.
And i need help and advice on DPA...i just feel like applying...:O

2011-06-19T13:16:00.003+08:00

HAPPY DADDDDY'S DAY TO MY DEAREST PAPA!
Hehehehe but sadly,he's working taxiiiii :( Must wait till night!
Hopefully he will like the card we made~my idea hehoha!
Love him max :D

So ytd bbq was great excluding the carrying things :X
Thanks to the 3 guys who cameeeeeee hohohoho!
My first time seeing such a big cakeeeeee like wow only hehehe.

Tmr is the start of last week of hols,like what the sian! :(

2011-06-16T23:26:00.000+08:00

Ytd cooked spaghetti tgt with ah tan and ah tay!!!!!!! :DDDD
We went to shop for grocery and cooked tgt so nice leh!! heeeeeeeheeee.
And we studied,really. I complete a set of math! (Y)

Today was an awesome day out with mei,conrad,jiameng,brandon and of course,THE SUPERSTAR TODAY,YUJIEEEEE! ^^
First,we went to safra for bowling,then to sing k at np,dinner and movie!!!
Alot first times with them but it was so enjoyable!!!
I cannot believe i sang for the first time infront of my friends.
Then we slacked after dinner while waiting for movie... i lost so badly that i have to suffer terrible forfeits by 3 guys.....arghhhhh.........
Ok never mind........first time and last time.......since they auto not me HAHAA.
Watched 'The Ward' and it was freaking scary that i really screamed.. :X

Anw,to yujie my bff since sec 1~I hope he really enjoy his sixteen with us and hope we will still contact even when we graduate. He has always been there for me in math when i really need it.
Thank you my dear friend,and i am glad to have you in my life!! :D

Just 30mins time,it will be KT's bday..WELL,HAPPY LEGAL EIGHTEEN TO HIM :)
Just appreciate what he had given me esp providing me a listening ear when i really need it!

GONNA ENJOY MY FRIDAY WITH BELOVED :)
And there goes my third week of hols...

2011-06-13T12:23:00.004+08:00

Getting busier to post............
WELL......Start of Third week of hols already. How time flies.

Firstly,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MDM LEE!!!!!! Miss her sooooo much.
And i remembered i used to hate her lessons so much that i fell aleep and even fail her subject! Hohooooooooo but i really miss those primary school days because it seemed so much carefree!
Anyways,hope to have a chance for a gathering with all the wonderful 6 hope somewhere eoy.

Today i am feeling damn weak,just feel like dying anytime.
I spent my weekend standing 10 hours at lot 1..........
Met some difficulty in work but i know they exist to train me to be a better person~
I met new ppl and gained enriching experience. Its like once in a lifetime.
The jokes and bitching was all memorable hahahhahaa.
Thank you PX,YX,Angela and Meiyi for making me learning new stuffs! :)
Also thank you beloved for listening to my rants during break time cos i was all alone AND MY LEGS FREAKING HURT LIKE GOING TO BREAK LOL.

Yeah so i spent my TGIF with qin ai de and jack! ^^
Went to PC show and took photos at marina.

So this week i am going to chiong all my hw that has been left undone and seriously there is too much....... ):
Looking forward to friday cos imma enjoy with beloved YAY!
Thurs outing with conrad,mei and yujie to celebrate Yj's bday too! SO HAPPY EARLY BDAY MY BFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
Many agenda aheaddddddddddd.
Next week is going to be a busy week too cos its last week of my hols like what the SIAN only -_-
So tmr going back for council meeting??????? alamak damn lazy max. But shall cherish my last few meetings with the peepoo oh yeah manzx.

Photos with sweetie now!!! =)

2011-06-07T10:23:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY BAOBEI AI LI! :D

Ytd was her sweet sixteen and we surprised her at her house with our lovely handmade cake and card!
Hope she enjoyed her day though it seemed like a normal day for her :O

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LOVELY COUSIN ,XUE LI,TODAY! ^^

We used to be super close,however,due to distance between our house and busy time,we have lesser time tgt now :C
Hope she enjoy her day too!

Yesterday i went through phy SPA 2 successfully and smoothly.
First time having confidence in physics,cool or wut!! XDDDD
happpppyy girl maxxxxxxx.

Later meeting lovely girls for lunch and head for wuxi clique outing :)

2011-06-04T21:51:00.004+08:00

Ok,1 week of holiday gone.

FIRST OF ALL,MY MT OS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I think it was easy seriously but i didn't read the qth properly enough so might not do really well ):
Hopefully a B at least! *Por Bi*
What's done cannot be undone,i just don't like the feeling of tensed up in the hall.
Even flipping the paper,i did it softly and tried controlling my cough so that i won't disturb everybody.
Pray hard i won't have to re-take.

So the other days were all intensive remedials.
I swear Physics is making me mad now with all the hand signs action,damn stupiak laaaaaaaaaa.
Dun understand a single shit at all and im back with kimbao to talk crap in class.
ENG was the best laaaaaaa,though its a boring subject but the jokes in class is so lively.
Had bio SPA 2 on thurs,very confident i did well HEH HEHHHHHHH.
Ytd did something fun though.. (a secret for now)
Today went to ICA to collect my passport. I think the feeling of legal age is awesome hahaha!
Then shopped around plaza sing with little bro and anna~
Tmr i am gg to do geo project at mei's house,hope it will be alright.
Monday is PHY SPA 2,prepare to really die.

I do not know how to describe my feeling now.
Happy,sad or vexed? No idea.
But i swear i miss the past great moments,now to get them back,seemed so impossible but i believe i will have a greater memories for the days ahead me.

2011-05-29T22:33:00.002+08:00

OK I AM DAMN NERVOUS AND SCARED AND WORRIED,
SERIOUSLY I AM NOT KIDDING.
I FEEL LIKE I AM GOING INSANE TOMORROW,AT THE MOMENT I SEE THE PAPER.
I DON'T WANNA FREAKING FAINT,
I DON'T WANNA FREAKING CRY......
I DON'T WANNA MY MIND TO GO BLANK......
But i really can't stop scaring myself.
I think nightmares will haunt me tonight.

Thank you lovely ppl for the wishes,be it sms,twit or fb,really appreciate.
I will not disappoint myself,lu lao shi and family.
So i will give me best,to remain calm and not to be over-paranoid.
JIAYOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-05-29T15:34:00.000+08:00

PCM on thurs night and kor went.
Results was shit for math la but i improved somehow he ho ha.
Said the same things and pin drop of silence as usual.
Friday went to waterfront and hiked at admiralty park with slippers hahahaa.

Having sore throat and cough ): Many yummy food cannot eat haish!
MT Os is drawing even nearer........TOMORROWW IS THE DAY.
Hopefully i will not get stunned by the qth and pls pray it will be manageable. Pls wish i will not crack my brain cells!!!!
REALLLY VERY SCARED...........):
I wonder what will be qth like,hope its something familiar.
Went through 2 weeks of intensive MT,hopefully i will do well and it shall be my last time seeing chineseeee!!!!!!

光阴似箭，日月如梭,明天就是5五月三十日。
加油吧，洪欣仪和所有 "O" 水准考生!

2011-05-23T22:15:00.003+08:00

Just realised i didn't blog for "so long".
Anw,my life is like damn great now he ho ha. Happygirl + blissfulgirl.
Must maintain wooolala.

Last friday went fishing with ah huat,weijie and monster.
Was great but got alot mosquito bite ):
PCM this thrusday,wtf.............gonna hear the same thing again,gonna say the same thing again.
Promise to do my best,promise this and that and ended up......... =x
Class party on friday,something to look forward! :D

HMMMMMMMMMM.....
Just exactly 1 week more. Very nervous. Very scared. Very worried. Very curious. Very very very...tired.
But i will give my best!! :)

2011-05-17T12:29:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was really a terrible day.
Got back all the results and really got a heart attack.
Did really badly..didn't expect SS to be that lousy,hence no A for humanties BUT a C for my first time ))):
Somehow 6 is like a number that i always get,46,56,76 -____-
Afterall,poa is my only A1. The rest Cs,Ds,Es.
Utterly disappointed by math cos i really screw up paper 1! T.T
Surprisingly failed phy paper 2 by half a mark -.- But papar 1 failed by3,if not i could have pass.
Bio was a huge mistake i make.....Intepret wrong chapter,so whole qth wrong! argh @@#!@@
In conculsion,1A,no Bs,3Cs,1D,2E????? Hope no f9 ! Cos eng result is not yet fully realeased.

I think its a wake up call.
Especially chinese cos im faching Os in 2 weeks time............................
I really screw english upside down,time to get serious things done.
I must not be lazy! I must be motivated! Just for another 5months.

If everything could start all over again...........

2011-05-14T12:11:00.003+08:00

Ytd went to nex with dara,chuin ann,wesley,yujie,maxie and bosheng for movie!
Fast and furious 5 was really great!!! wootszx!!!
Thanks chuin ann for treating me ahahahaha.
Bs was being a basket ytd but after a little secret sharing,forgive him. hahahaa.
Headed to woodlands lib with dt to fix koala bear!!! yayzx finally its done...tedious work.
Then dinner and home sweet home.
Awesome friday,the 13th!

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY TO MAXIE ^^ My 4 yrs of classmate and same subjects as me till today!

Tmr celebrating belated mother's day with doraemon family ♥

2011-05-12T20:11:00.000+08:00

YAYYYYYYYY...
All i can say is i smiled so widely after POA papers....the only one i have confidence.
Hope i didn't screw up today's P1.
I am hoping to see improvement in bio as well cos i think it was really manageable!! ^^
Today went bugis with tayzhixin <333333
She brought me to a place i've never been before :O looked cool! Had vegetarian lunch with her hahahahahaaaaa.
Then we just walked around and talk and talk.
Bought lego to do! heheheheeee.
I got koloa bear~but difficult max.
I don't know fate or coincidence,that we actually met on the bus today. hehehe happy!
Now we believe in fate (Y) heheeheeee sg is realllllyyyy small.

Tmr is friday,13th. Hope nothing goes wrong.

What's next......
Intensive MT remedials,SPA for phy and bio,17 报章报道 to write(i swear its really mad) and MT Os to face on 30may.
Really,i fear.
I looked at the date everyday,thinking why 24hour clock pass so fast?
I wake up,open my eyes,another day....which mean a day nearer to bigggggg day. oh damn.

2011-05-10T12:31:00.004+08:00

Today i screw phy P1. TYS was way much easier......... ): why why why!!!!!!!!
I just got to bear for 3more days and everything will be over! hehehe.
Results out next week,sigh.
But chinese Os in like 2-3 weeks time,!@#@#@#$@#.

Somehow i really miss working life. I miss people i met. They came into my life and disappeared.
But i will not forgot the fun experience i been through with them :D

2011-05-08T16:57:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWINNNY! <3333333333

A long post dedicated for you!!!
Thanks for being with me for this 3yrs and 5months and still counting.
Time flies,from a nerdy us to a graduating class already!
I still remember all the good times we used to had,esp horny craps uh.
*THE PLEASURE OF SUCKING* HAHAHAHA will always be on our mind right!
I miss staying a few blocks away from you,miss the time where we had PW with huatkit and we just go crapping non-stop,miss the time where we like to go out and aim hot guys and of course BEING CLASSMATES WITH YOU ):
Now that we are from different class,but we still go to school everyday <3!!!!
Realllllyyy miss the great times we spent tgt every single day.
Though we're really busy nowadays but i know our friendship bond will be everlasting!
Good luck for the upcoming Os alright~ Don't let anything affect you! No matter what,i am always here for you!
May all your lovely dreams come true on this special day of yours.
Lets not forget each other even when we graduate ok,must keep in touch! :D
I love you the most,twinnyyyyy.
Thank you or everything you had done to my life in NBSS! ^^
Meeting you was fate,getting close was a choice and becoming twinny is an affinity.
I hope you had enjoyed your sixteen
&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&
LOVE THE SURPRISE AND PRESENT WE GOT FOR YOU~! XDD
Can't wait for the belated celebration this sat!!! xoxo!
And thanks for the wonderful host at your house just now!
Sorry to trouble your sis and mum~and really appreciate it too :D
HAVE A GREAT DAY,MUACKSSS! :*

Next,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MOON$ too!
Woots!!!! Shall meet up with him for belated celebration someday ^^

Ytd went to town with aili and lixuan hehehehe it was a great saturday!
I spent $8 on a small beef burger but it was like niceeeeeee max.
Then we just keep walking on the streets and talk! <3
Great time with the girls and i hope to have more meet ups!

HAPPPPYYYY MOTHERS' DAY TO ALL THE GREAT MOTHERS IN THIS EARTH!!

Without mothers,there will be no generations!
Dining at aunt's house and steamboat at chen's house~

Dearest Mummy,no matter where are you,i still love you unconditionally (♥)
Though i have no chance to say it face to face to you,but i know you will feel my love.
Without you,i won't have what i have today.
Thanks so much for being a great mummy in my life and i promise you i will make you proud.
Lots of misses and love ):

2011-05-06T16:28:00.004+08:00

YAYYYYYYY FINALLY ITS FRIDAY again!

The toughest week is over!!! I got it through with love in the air HAHAHA.
Now im left with poa,bio and phy P1! JIAYOU!
But srly i think i flung math,phy and geo O______O
Whatever it is,they are over and i did my best! :)))))))))
Happy max. I have 3 days off~
I must ace my poa no matter what! :( My humanties is like gone. fook shit.
I wish i study on whatever had came out,instead of wasting so many memory cells memorising so many things when only a few came out!
Ytd cooked for kor and didi! THEY WERE SO HAPPY AND ME TOO :D
Shall drill my cooking skills hehehe cos korkor say must cook once a week.
It might not be a big feast,but we're eating home-cooked food at least~~ =>

Mother's Day on sunday. I want go temple.
Also,its twinny bday YAYYYZX gonna give her BOOOMZXBAAAA surprise as a clique hehehe.

I wish i had a chance,to choose how my past would be.
But i am excited for future too hmm..

2011-05-02T19:03:00.003+08:00

Ytd spent a productive day studying at wq's house though there were tons of distractions.
Happy when i get to see your face,loving it when i start to threaten you!
Today went to bugis with cousin! :D Had a great day with them and i love them the most hehehe.

MYE starting tmr...all the core subjects this week but i dun give a damn
-______________________________-
I really did not study,so if i were to get lousy grades,serve me right then ):
There were really too much things going on,making me unable to concentrate.

All i need is your answer,stop giving me any wild hopes because its hurting me so much.
I wonder if those tears was worth it.................
Somehow something is missing when we didn't contact for a day.
I am missing you,you are all i had.

2011-05-01T01:06:00.002+08:00

Its MAY ALRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. OMG SO FAST :O
I think i screw eng P2 upside down ): oh blame my sleepiness~ chi i guess it was okay!
Went on study date with my lovely girls at khatib mac today,tuition and met joseph,jinghui and celestine for math.
Headed to baibai and chen's house after that for dinner with anna,lixuan and kim! :D
Great saturdayyyy.

Tmr is sunday,going joseph's house for math again! And studying with bastard hehehehee!

MYE is next week ohmygod. I really haven't finish memorising notes zzzz.

2011-04-28T00:09:00.004+08:00

Celebrated jinsan's bday in advance by going to her house after P1 last thurs~
Had great fun since we rarely hang out tgt nowadays ):
MYE starting really soon. I haven't get started oh my gawd~!
Prepared for ugly grades D:
Faster MYE over,but intensive MT gonna start ohmy.......
Whatever it it,JIAYOU EVERYONE :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEN XIN TOO!! =D

2011-04-22T23:21:00.000+08:00

Ytd was P1. And i swear i am very delighted!!!
I didn't stun,instead,aspirations invaded my mind!
Damn happy! I have gotta the confidence to do well XD
The atmosphere at hall was really tensing..but i have no scenery to see ):
Hopefully i won't be disappointed..

Time passed so fast again. Its friday! BUT A GOOD ONE,YAY TGIF!
Firstly,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NOEL~
Went to changi airport to study with bastard~ :D
Went to all terminals,walked,talked and had fun more than i did poa!!
But i guess its all worth it as long as its with you,i feel happy :D
Then headed to city hall..walked and walked and found a place for dinner finally.
Hahaha walked and homed...
Damn tired and sleepy now X.X went out the whole day!!!

Town tmr with momochen yayyyyyynessss.
I must faster finish hw alr ))):

2011-04-19T23:26:00.004+08:00

HAPPPYYY BELATED BIRTHDAYYYYYY TO JACK :D
Hope he likes my card :D
HAPPPPPY BIRTHDAY TO SABRINA (Y)
Hope i am the last to wish her..hehe
HAPPPPPY EARLY BIRTHDAYYYYYYY TO SOONYU & NIRMAL! :)
Hope i am the first the wish them haha.

Celebrated their bdays on monday~it was a great time to talk to the awesomes!! Xoxo!!

Srly.....i felt so shagged nowadays.
Study and study and study ):
Remedials,remedials,remedials.
Exams,tests,exams,tests,exams.
Pass,fail,pass,fail,pass,fail.
Stress,cry,stress,cry,stress,cry!
I want days in the past,but at the same time,i want certain dates to arrive fast!
我终于走出来，我终于看开爱回不来。
我终于决定不再把以前阻碍我的未来，让一切都成为一场美丽的梦。

I rather attend CCAs than having remedials until 5.45pm every tue. IT SHUCKS TOTALLY.
Esp it is eng in the noon,i felt like i am going to doze off anytime!
Sigh. MYE is TMR,so fast that i haven't even start memorising D:
This is the first time i felt so helpless,useless and i have no more motivation.
But i must press on...its the last year,sounded easy but to treat things seriously,its torturing me.

I can't get them right,who's willing to help me?
I can't get out of the maze,who's willing to guide me out?
I can't keep everything to myself,who's going to hear me out?
I can't take it,who's going to push me on?
I can't smile everyday happily,who's there to understand?
You,him,her,they or none?
People are so self-fish because you only cares what you think. By all means......not going to give a damn anymore.
I don't see a need to be so over....because as long as i get my desire outcomes,i will be happy.
I am trying to improve,constantly putting in effort,not even feel like giving up anymore,just waiting for my outstanding results.

I will be happygurl95. Hahahaa.

Somehow seeing your name,our convers really enlighten me. =)

2011-04-17T14:09:00.006+08:00

Spent a great sat finally.
Went to see Linda Chung with geraldine at tampines mall.
We were soooo excited that we went an hour earlier before she come.
Tired of standing and squeezing BUT WORTH IT! :D
SHE IS SERIOUSLY SOOO CUTE! Especially speaking in chinese! weeeeee!!!!!!
Asked one of the fan club member to lend us the poster to take a photo,hahaha damn ps but she is very kind!!!
Saw this very dashing hongkong guy too!!! SO HANDSOME HAHAHAHA.
Ok,then went astons for dinner. Q was super long until i got a gastric pain..tsk....
Then saw qin ai de and jack...hence,we ended up shopping tgt :D

Today i am mugging on math mostly.
Joseph has been helping me with math on msn,thanks alot.
Despite me being so dumb asking this and that,he still answer me with me understanding completely. THANKS ALOT =D
Party carnival under block..joinging later :D
Star awards tonight~! EXCITED! RUI EN,GOOOOOOOO ALL THE WAY~

2011-04-15T18:42:00.003+08:00

Its friday AGAIN.
Why time pass so fast.................but in school,the long damn hours is always so draggy.
But now some of us stayed back after school until like 5plus just to finished our stuffs.
Thanks yujie,bosheng and joseph who never fails to reject me when i need help for math! Especially yujie!!! Whenever i am having the verge to give up,he will patiently teach me! TY! :D
Super elated today because i got my first A for bio. MY VERY FIRST TIME,hehehe! ;)

Ok,i ought to more hardworking for the coming 3weeks! I must.
Somehow i am worried for chinese cos our big day is coming soon. SPA too! omg,i hate practicals srly!!!! :@
As for eng,we really got to buck up before we have to camp with mrs raghesh everyday during june hols.
Worst still,she threatened that sch might not allow us to sit for Os this year if we're not ready.

SIGH SIGH SIGH. Os is pressuring us.
But SOON,we will miss our days now alot though its so stressful & busy~but i love the way we attend class tgt as 4E1/2 :) At times,it can be really annoying la..haha.
2E3`09 used to be the best class,i rmb so clearly. The times we had in class was really awesome,the jokes by the guys was srly cannot stop laughing. I don't know why we never treasure those days so much~ ):

What you see from us,might not be as close as what you think.
What you never see from us,does not mean we're not close.
=)

2011-04-12T20:46:00.004+08:00

Officially POP today.
Really,seriously,i am leaving guides alr ):
I realised 4 years passed like bullet train.
I used to be a nerd junior,i used to be very quiet in guides,i dare not open my mouth,i dare not go hyper,i did not dare to be interactive with people.
Now,i miss all the good times we spent tgt,especially during camps!!! Mystery night was the fun part ever :D
I miss my seniors,juniors and teachers.
Thank you Mdm Low,Ms Lee,Ms Marinah & Ms Boon. Without you all, my life in guides would not be so exciting!
And........my dear JASMINE PATROL~ i hope you girls will maintain the good reputation that we had built up ok! xoxo!!
I can't believe i gonna be CCA-less for the remaining months. It feels so weird=(
))))))))): Now,its time to focus MYE. NEXT WEEK IS THE FIRST PAPER AND I HAVEN'T EVEN PREPARE! Dead meat! D:

this was belated outdoor challenge photo we took :)

Happily throwing beri! :DGRADUATE LO! ^.^

2011-04-10T14:27:00.001+08:00

Basically,this week really sucks. Finally,i got it through! YES MAN.
Seriously,tests everyday is not a joke. I haven't go insane,phew.
But i can't take it if my leftover 6months is going to be X10 of this tough ):

Tuesday was a touching day as the juniors prepared farewell party for us...with videos,yummy food and a card with their wishes! <3
Thank you dear girls~
POP on coming tues,thats the day where i really have to say byebye guides T.T

Thurs was NAPFA test,i hope to get a silver~
Met qin ai de and jack,after kfc,they came to my house! ^.^

Friday..hmm some great thing i did was completed 100bio mcqs in like 1hr15mins only.
NGT finals was like wowwwww,haha woted for my idol,SYAZWAN! HEHE ;D
Also,prepared friendship day cards for my lovely girls :] hope they like it!

Ytd was guides 100th year,so went to bishan stadium.
Also,we received our silver award! YAYNESS ^.^
It was seriously a horrendous weather. I just can't sit still,can't stop sweating,can't open my eyes all the way till we got a shady spot!
The sun was like directly infront of me-.-
Took pretty photos for memories as it would be out last time taking part HQ events T.T

Today daddy's off! Hehehehe going out later i hope so! :D

graduating seniors~:D

Not regretting i didn't love you,but i regretted hurting you. Its too late anw..

2011-04-03T12:30:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BRITHDAY TO MY IDOL~ :D
Love her to the max <333333 Hope she's elated receiving my card :D

Whoa,a week passed again.
Too busy so i guess i will cut down on blogging.
Just a few words to describe me.. I wish i am a vacuum to suck all the notes. Revision murdering me!! ):
Tests every now and then.. Exams' round the corner. Just 3 more weeks! man,i must jiayou. Coming week have tests everyday,wah shucks. Where got time to do hw!? D:
Still,i am doing them everyday to be a good student cos i don't like to hand it late... My principle since younggggg.

That night,i thought everything was ending for me,cos i almost broke down..........who to turn to sometimes,i really don't know.
People i love the most tends to hurt me the most.......all i need was your encouragement,is that so difficult? ):

APRIL FOOL.....................
Got fooled by that limbosheng! argh stupid boy!
But we ended up fooling teachers :D
Switched class with 4E2 to give form teachers a surprise hahabut failed totally. LOL.
Then fooled ms marinah when going SGH for our warrior badge HAHAHAH.
Our last year too..sigh.
Oh,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO C.XINYI TOO :DDD

Stepping down next tues. OMG,so sad srly.
Cos i only have fun during PE and guides.
Now i left with PE to enjoy! )))))):
I will definitely miss the girls and guiding!
Ytd went to take part outdoor challenge,we came in third place out of 13 schools! WEEE.
HAPPY TTM,finally some good news before i leave~Well done to the other 2 lower sec girls too!

taken at SGH~

Please let me pass phy tmr......

2011-03-27T22:24:00.003+08:00

My wonderful dinner at domino pizza with the girls exclude zx~ :D NICEEEEEE
Happy Advance Birthday to kor~turned old again...... may all your wishes come trueeee :D
Celebrated for him by having steamboat with family ((:

Another week to pull through. 3 tests,please pray i will do well.......

2011-03-27T13:58:00.007+08:00

Rewinding the photos to recall the past.
I miss the fun,the laughter,the times and everything with every single people i once hanged out with.
Thats what happened when i dun feel like touching my books but let my mind go wild for awhile :D
Was talking to noel,omg srly,great memories during my sec 2 days.
Come to think of it,he was sec 4 when i knew him and now,i am sec 4 alr -.-
Sad,i am growing old. tsk tsk tsk!

Shall do math tys later,i have test next week.
Girl,you must be a little more hardworkingggg. ;X
BEAR FOR ANOTHER 8 MORE MONTHS YESH! But i wish time would go slower..
Somehow i dun think i look like an O level student,cos i am not being ready enough!

Meeting siting and aili for dinner tonight! YAY! I miss your D;
Schooling life sometimes sucks..but 4e1 make my days a little ROCKer~

i dun want to live in regrets anymore,but too many things i regretted. so how? ):

2011-03-26T20:00:00.000+08:00

Time flies. First week of term 2 ends. Moved closer to major examssssss!
In about 5 weeks,we will be taking prelim 1. Time is like bullet train,super fast ): got to start revising sec 3 work cos i really forgotttttttttt esp humanities and emaths!

Ok first of all,Mr Tay switched Kim's place with Clara's.. so we're separated~and many teachers were very happy cos we are no longer like sticky glue together D;
Physics is like getting interesting and i hope i will improve this term.
I had the worst uncooked instant noodles in my life on wed LOL! becos we were rushing for structured remedial...ended up,teacher was super late zzz!
Thurs had geo and eng debates! It was super fun and 4e1 was like super cuteee lo..everyone was so agitated ahahah! :)
Stayed for clay-making for guides and met ms phua for poa.....had fun chatting with her ^.^
Ytd was TGIF but stayed in school for bio till 2plus and went bugis with lx,anna and kim in the evening :D

Oh btw,got my new phone galaxy aceeeeeeeeeee! :D but i am just not used to touch screen phones ahhaha.
Well,i don't have much time to mingle with it as i spent most of my lovely time on undone homeworks.
Just first week,already busy like mad.. I wonder what will happen to the remaining days.
Like 40+ days to first Os paper. Omg,i swear i am super worried but at the same time,i am super lazy still.. I still lack the determination.

Today is a lonely staurday. Homeworks > Tuition > Revision > tv and com.
Kor went out,the rest went to malaysia with grandpa and uncle..leaving me alone at home :<
No one at home,i can cry out loud? scream out loud? hahahzx.... Stupid passport,time to go renew ):

I MISS YOU QIN AI DE :(

as much as i tried to stop thinking,as much as i tried occupying myself with studies,as much as i tried to stop my thoughts going wild,as much as i tried not to imagine you're my only source of determination. Still,i think of you.............. :C

guides fun session on tues XD

camwhore! :P

EARTH HOUR IN HALF AN HOUR'S TIME. SWITCH OFF LIGHTS,i hope i will remember la hehehehehehehe.

2011-03-19T12:48:00.005+08:00

Ytd USS trip with jimmy and huatkit was awesome! :D
The first ride we took was the cyclon!!! Omg super scary cos there's like 3 rounds of 360degrees.
Screamed my lungs off and i couldn't open my eyes at all! HAHAHA.
Don't know how to describe those feelings but it was just super shiok and thrilling.
The pressure of the galactica made me scared only >.<
The red one has a much longer part of accelerating almost 90degrees down and i screamed like mad srly -.-
Before riding the red one for second time,i still told jimmy if i die,must tell ah huat i have alot things to do in my life man(i fnd myself so silly la lol)!!! haha stupid ah huat dn dare to take red one!
Q-ed for 90mins for the jurasic park water game,ended up,the guys got wet and i'm dry! :D Toured around the uss and tried everything until 9pm and watched fireworks.. Woots,niceeeee ttm! XD
Had a great day at uss with the guys!!!!!! ^^

Now,its time to complete my hwwwwwww. Hols ending....screw my life -.-
And i cant wait to sign a new contract if not imma going crazy!

our lunch~ and it sucks totally. Expensive,fries no taste,coke diluted!

2011-03-17T19:42:00.001+08:00

Ytd had a swim in the evening with zx and aili! :)
I guess swimming is a good form of dis-stress :D especially with my girls!~
Then night i threw temper at her for the first time. srly just pissed off.

This morning supposed to meet geraldine and kwee for a swim too but weather didn't permits.
So met for breakfast with kt instead (:
Mj at chen's house to substitute daniel tan until he came.
Ohmygod,felt bad to call and wake him up since he's lacking of sleep for the past few days ;P
Unglam voice ttm,but hope his throat will become better ba though the current voice is nicer :D
Then headed to meet zx and ermanda at cathay to watch Red Riding Hood.
It was awesome! Must watch! Hahahaha!!! It has been so long since i catched up with ermanda.
Aw,miss the past so much :( thanks ermanda for the famous amos and letter for belated bday present. Heee,appreciated loads! XD

USS tmr :> i have no idea if i dare to sit on the rides..hahaha! Well,only with huatkit and jimmy >.<

I have no idea what you want,what i want. As much i try to engage a conver,it will failed ite.

2011-03-15T15:40:00.002+08:00

Holiday starts! but its going to end soon.........
Ytd was hell a tired day cos there was 3 hours of bio and 2 hours of poa. Brain dead~.~
Then headed to amk to meet ying and thuhein for movie.
Catched "My ex",kind of scary and i really screamed in the cinema >.<
Dined at fish & co,walked around and homed :)

Today skipped bio due to 5yrs anniversary.
Time really fliesssss. 1825 days without you ever again,miss you so much ):
I know one has to look forward,but sometimes its not as easy as what people think.
CHEER UP,ANG XIN YI!

Decided to give up concert,cut down on outings..so i am finally going to own galactica this friday tgt with huatkit,jimmy and 2 other girls which i don't really know who.
Hope the weather permits!!!!

#prayforjapan......i have yet to visit you,please don't go.

2011-03-12T23:47:00.003+08:00

Japan is facing serious natural disasters which led to many deaths. A TOTAL TRAGEDY.
Pray hard for the people over there to be safe and receive aid asap.
Its saddening to hear about this,greatest condolences.................................................
I hopeeeeeee the nuclear wont explodeee.

Ytd went CIP with guides at the old folks home.
Had a great day because we did a good deed by bringing joy to them.
It was super scary at the start and i was so tensed up that the sing along i planned would be screwed up.
It did screwed up,but we still managed to run the whole show.
I hope jasmine will be more enthu if not once i stepped down,they're going to suffer la! ):
Headed to HQ for a briefing with shanshan,ok bored ttm.
Met up with peiqi and kim for dinner and went school with kim for meet the parents.
Waited for kor to come cos daddy busy working. TSK.
Was surprised he praised me for a few things. =) just that i need to improve for my f9 & E8 subjects. Oopsy.
I will work hard for the upcoming MYE/Prelim 1. ((((:

Today went hiking at MacRitchie.
All i can say is its was super duber tiring!
Walked for 4.5km~ -.-!
But i felt guilty for not being a PL,sorry jasmine.
Anyways,lunch at Wendys and home sweet home.

constance super duber cute,but keep pulling my hair! naughty girl! *piak*

I NEED MONEY TO DROP FOR ME! :(
Outings,shopping,USS,genting and concert.
All i want,but there's no way i can afford them all.
So....i got to give up some atm T.T

2011-03-10T20:48:00.003+08:00

Surprised kim with anna and kelin by preparing her dinner and bought her fav durian cake on her bday.
Then eat eat,played mahjong and other card games. Super fun. Cabbed home with anna at 1plus~

Then ytd went amk new york X2 with kor's clique.
Had great great fun! :D THANKS SOONYU GOT TREATING ME =)
Tmr is last day of school & gonna have a week break.
But hw is piling up like mountains -.-"

5 years of being independence,without relying on you,i miss you.

2011-03-05T10:59:00.006+08:00

Ytd cross country was super duber fun and tiring.
My first and my last time D:
Ran 3km and i'm like half-dead.
When reaching the finishing line,i grabbed on to thuhein's hands and collapsed..
My mind was like total blank ): and kahwei and mr teo came to me.
Mr teo almost called the medic,super scary.
Was super giddy ): then geral came to help me to find a seat.
Thanks people who was there to help me! I feel so ps now. hahahahhaaaaaaa~
Got 12th position! hehehehehehehehe. I thought i couldn't get into top 20~
AND 4E1 GOT THE CHAMPION AMONG THE WHOLE LEVEL! WOOOHOOO.
We gonna party next week and mr tay should be proud of usss alr! XDDD
After cross country,went home changed and go huatkit's house with kim,joel,jinsan,jinwen and chinkiat.
Had loads of fun! I really wish everyday would be that fun! hahahaaaaaaa.
Then dinner at milk cafe with ah huat,kim and joel. And we chatted till 10plus.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST KIM BAO! :D

Thanks for being such a great partner! Thanks for everything!
I love you millions times, and i hope you'll have a great day ahead. LOVE YOU XOXOXOXOXOXOXO!!

Stop being a bitch i tell you,today you're the biggest so imma give in to you! hehehehe! <3MUACKS,I LOVE YOU BABE!

4E1 ROCKS YAYYYY <333333333

Winners for sec 4/5 girls :D

my trophy ^.^

2011-03-03T16:42:00.002+08:00

Oh man. I never expect CT results to be this worst.
Its a total disasters. Its a nightmare.
My first time getting F9 in report book ): somemore its eng.
I flung the core badly,math E8 and phy too. Sweat.....
I need to start bucking up.
Sigh,i am so disappointed T.T

Cross country tomorrowwwww at RP,weets. JIAYOU 4E1,WE CAN BE THE CHAMPION! :)

2011-02-28T18:04:00.003+08:00

Sigh.

Got back math and eng today. super duber sad.
Math,my heart was palpitating so much when she said 6 people failed.
Thank my goodness! I passssedddddddd,at least i didn't waste my effort.
However,i flung badly for eng cos i chose the wrong topic. So stupid man )))):
Its ok,failure doesn't mean determine my future. Its just learning experience.
Bio mock MCQ,sweat man. I duuno how to handle next week Paper 2 alr,i am gonna dieeeee.

I failed 3 core,only passed math. Throw face ttm.
Damn,for the first time,my report book gonna have so many underlines..E8 somemore. ):
Depressing.
I am sorry mummy and daddy. ):

Magical march. I need to make full use because as each day passes,it means i am a day nearer to the Major exams D:
Stress,hw,revision piling up..waitng for me at one side.

2011-02-26T15:19:00.004+08:00

怎么办，怎么办。我对不起我自己，真的感到很难过。
无法把泪往肚里吞，在课室默默的流泪，一滴一滴。一向起，心很酸，眼睛有水汪汪了。。。
这种感觉非常辛苦，没人能理解。心理那种害怕是没有能体会到的。
江津会考的时间越来越短，若不继续努力，四年在军港中学就浪费了。
我真得很怕，我已经很努力了。。。

Seriously,i screwed bio too.
Though i passed,but it was merely a just pass. sigh,i feel so demoralized.
Perhaps i am not meant to be a science student cos i flung sci during PSLE too... )))))))))))):

Ok,on a happier note.. Thursday celebrated ying's belated birthday at seoul garden!
Had great fun and i was the chef for the girls~ hmm.
Ytd went mac to study with kor,our first time. so weird but cool uh.
Headed to udders today with kwee,ice cream ice cream :D

2011-02-24T22:17:00.002+08:00

I am fucking depressed now.
I just find it unfair.
Knowing i am weak in phy,i asked daddy to let me go tuition.
But ite,i still flung again and again.
I am so disappointed with myself and i know mr tay is very unhappy too.
I'm always in the failure list! Each time we take the test,lesser and lesser people failed.
But i am never eliminated from it. I felt very upset.
Upon receiving ct today,i cried in class. I just can't control. I just can't believe.
Why did i do so badly? Like worsen in fact....
I don't even dare to tell daddy i fail again ): Cos i fear he would say i am wasting his money.
I feel like quitting tuition,but at the same time,i want to do well in phy.
I even go all the way down to seek help from senior,but whyyy i still fail.

Many people told me,its okay,Os is the main aim we're heading.
So imma strive harder. I wanna prove mr tay i can do it,for i promised i will give my best shot,not to fail anymore.

Sometimes i really got worn out,but i know i have to tell myself i must not give up.
I have to move on. And i will.

2011-02-23T20:11:00.003+08:00

YESSSSSSSS,FINALLY COMMON TESTS IS OVER.

No more mugging like dunno what at night,so tiring!!!!
However,i fear for the results man. I somehow dun have the confidence. I even flung Chinese when i swear i gave my 100%!
So disappointed but its ok,failure is only an implication that i will do better next time :D from kwee.

Today had PE,fell like 2 times,it was so ps cos i fell infront of the WHOLE CLASS. LOL! Now baddd blue black D:
Was told next fri is cross country ohmygod. No time to train! and its my first time in 4 years..wee!
Tmr getting back phy,poa..i have no confidence at all.
For phy,its the usual fail for sure. I just dun want single digit!
Poa..my distinction is gone man..........the first time i stunned at accounts...sobzxxxx!

I must strive harder,i must start working hard before i start regretting!